All This Anti-Police Sentiment

When I was cuffed when the police was called after a breakdown I resisted and it took five officers to throw me in the van. I am grateful that they were all professional and didn’t hurt me, I am sorry I resisted but I was not quite myself at the time. When the first cuff was on one wrist I panicked and tore the other hand away and a struggle ensued.

Well at least this police story didn’t end in tragedy, I think there are good cops and bad cops just like in the movies. Also the racial profiling isn’t such a thing north of the border it appears. Though I am white of course.

The one female officer that first approached me was actually quite friendly. If they hadn’t decided to put handcuffs on me I probably would have gotten into the squad car without resisting. The cuffs just sent me into a panic, I also didn’t really think they would do that.

The thing is I am not a cop or soldier hater, I respect what they are supposed to do in civilized society when things don’t work out. I just wish it weren’t necessary and that there weren’t bad cops and soldiers. I don’t like how when some officers do something wrong, they are targeted in general, it should be just the wrongdoers, if you generalize than you are also guilty of profiling which is of course ironic.

I am of course critical of the militarization of the police, especially in the United States, it doesn’t help when officers are trained to think of civilians as hostile forces and not citizens with rights. I have said in conversation that if the U.S. government ever becomes corrupt enough to use it’s armed forces for mass police-state style suppression of the population at large, their forces, due to the nature of American patriotism, would largely disobey orders. The military might actually rebel. I think it’s a cool feature of American patriotism and hope it endures. If only we lived in a global federation with this feature, it’s still all this “us and them” bullshit.

Edit: When I wrote this I wasn’t aware of how much racism still exists in Canada in the system and otherwise. I blame it Canada’s really good PR. I apologize for my ignorance.

I Am An Internet Era Person

I am the tiny artist/intellectual. I fill the cracks between the giants. The internet is better than peddling on the sidewalk no? Maybe not, I don’t know, selling stuff on the sidewalk takes up so much time, and then there are the legal requirements and paying for printing costs. I will just pretend that I will go viral and become famous, or something like that and become a giant and make lots of money.

That’s normal no? I am not sure I want to remain tiny and (first world)poor.
It is nice that you are reading this though, hurrah for exposure!
But I suppose even old me has some space to take up in this society, I can only think of the wretched of the earth and their daily struggle for survival, this life I have isn’t so bad I guess.
My Grandmother passed away yesterday, I spent a time living with her as I mentioned and she was a big part of growing up too, helping raise me and my sister. I irrationally hope that I will see her again and will miss her as I miss many that have passed on.
I do want to make the people in my life proud of my achievements, even the ones that are no longer with us.

My Paranoia Is Like Role-playing A Lot In My Head

Once I am this, once I am that, I change roles several times an hour. Other people in my life have various roles in my story as well.

It is a fun mind game to play, I am a dungeon master in my own personal RPG.

Edit: Ok, it isn’t always fun, it can be one where the world is hostile towards me, I was just trying to be positive about my disorder.

Jawohl Mein Trump!

Ok, if he suggests putting all Muslims in the U.S. in camps next I will seriously lose my shit.

Banning all Muslims from immigrating is already way too far in Nazi territory. Actually people should be loosing their shit over this. I am tempted to go yelling like a lunatic in the town square, warning people of the fact that just because the Axis powers were defeated, doesn’t mean we should not be ever vigilant.

I wish there were more of a point to all these anti-nazi movies in the sense of making people not support Nazis and people who share values with their more insane views.

I really enjoyed the new “The Man in the High Castle” show though. It has a scene where a Jewish prayer is being spoken while scenes from telephone surveillance by the Japanese are being shown. It felt subversive, considering all the surveillance done by the NSA, and the intelligence agencies of other countries currently being done on their own citizens.

The Truman Show

I do wonder if I live in a totalitarian state and am an experiment as to what humans will accept as values, if they are propagated through media and word of mouth. I also imagine that there are ways to record people without being noticeable through walls.

New 2017 Trek Series

I heard a few Trekkies talk about how we should divorce Star Trek from Gene and I disagree, I never find myself 1 to 1 in opinions with anyone really, but he had good ideas about how the world could and should be. I hope the new Trek series in 2017 is more about Gene’s vision and not the action and action/comedy we have been getting in the films since Wrath of Khan. (I do like action films and shows, I just don’t get as much out of them than with good trek episodes).

Whilst Watching The Lego Movie

I was thinking my former friend Craig is an evil genius.

He used to brag about how good he was at making movies in 3d on computers, but it was never as good as the stuff the entertainment industry was pumping out, though he claimed he could do anything he saw on his computer. Maybe he was obfuscating his talent the whole time and left and made the Lego movie or was involved, he did like Lego after all.

System Drug Infilitrators

Man, my brain thinks up weird scenarios.

In the hidden layer that I often perceive to the world, I feel that there are government sponsored drug sniffers who are allowed to use gestapo-clown tactics in finding out V.I.P. young people’s purity in regard to drug use.

The List

There should be readily accessible information on elected parties promises kept after being elected. A checklist you know?


Funny, a few hours after I posted this I found out that there is one in Canada now, it was front page news.

The World Is Ruled By…

A Hippie Nazi Scientist Illuminati, the elections are a lie!

I implore them to be more hippie and less Nazi!